routine has been the only way i know to deal with this. my routine has been to get home from work as soon as possible to go. there are days i have to leave work early because somehow i've eaten something that causes me to go immediately. i am so careful about what i eat at work. on weekends i am able to go first thing in the morning, so i can spend my day with friends. this is sometimes awkward because i often stay at my boyfriend's place on weekends, so i leave as soon as i wake up. luckily, he sleeps late. i'm dreading a trip i've been planning with two friends to costa rica. it's two males friends, though, so i'll have my own room with my own bathroom. i've made it so clear we have to reserve rooms in advance because i'm terrified we won't have a place to stay and they'll want to camp on the beach. i absolutely can't do that. i would love to go camping, but this issue prevents that.
A lifetime of pills can't be the answer. i think it's anxiety and therefore something we need to all learn to let go of. i hate pills and believe there are natural ways to address our anxiety. i hope so, anyway.
best of luck to all of us, and hockey is the best!