Wow, I thought I was a freak too until I just found this site today. If I'm around anyone other than close family, I just will not be able to go. I don't even have the option as I've sat on the toilet for up to 30 minutes feeling if I tried to strain any harder I'd blow my head off (I'm almost embarassed to type this lol - almost). Yet when I'm alone, the urge to go strikes me so fast and furiously, I almost have to make a dash for the bathroom. If people were to come into the house though - friends, etc,- the urge would dissappear and I wouldn't be able to go if I wanted to.

So all that in itself hasn't been a huge inconvenience in my life. I actually enjoy my body not wanting to do the poop thing thing while others are around but on long holidays, or if I'm even somewhere for just a couple days and I didn't happen to go recently before I left, it can be very uncomfortable. I still won't be able to go to the washroom but I feel incredibly bloated, gassy, and uncomfortable.

It can also be particularly embarassing if I'm somewhere I havent been able to releive myself for several days, then everyone goes out, or is asleep and I'm off in a room by myself and the urge hits. The size of the, you know lol, is often so big I'll have to break it up with q-tips which can be a hefty job if you're also aiming to ONLY have it touch the q-tips and keep your hands out of the water.

I've only ever told my partner this stuff and he thinks I'm insane lol. Its great to know I'm not and there are other's like me!