The routine you two have created seems like it works for the most part. I'm in a college dorm, but luckily my roommate stays elsewhere for several nights a week. That gives me alone time during which my body feels comfortable enough and I get the urge to go. Parcopresis is hindering though because, while a routine works, it also restricts. I hate parcopresis and paruresis so much because it makes me fear staying out too long during the day. I return to my dorm as often as I can "just in case" I need to go and my body isn't telling me that I need to go. Does that make sense? I want to be able to travel, to visit places where I have to stay overnight. I want to leave my room in the morning and not return until late at night without feeling gross and worried and stressed. I want not to worry about it at all. It's preoccupying, as you know. I think about it basically all day every day. It's so hard. But I know you all are with me, so I'm comforted at times.
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