ugh you guys, i know EXACTLY what you are going through! i thought i was the only one doing this. i have panics every time i eat in public or with my boyfriend. its immediate and very scary, and causes me to feel that i have to have a BM but i know i don't. i feel this tense nervous and bloated feeling all day after that, even knowing that i dont have to go, considering i barely ate anything.

i get so scared that its some type of eating disorder. which is crazy because i LOVE food.

i was actually with a friend at her house and her year younger sister's friends were over. they were a mixed gender crowd....and they would fart on each other and the girls would laugh and say.."oh geez i think ihave to poop guys"....i was soooo jealous, and felt the urge to be comfortable enough to do the same, but even though i was POSITIVE that they wouldnt judge me at all if i said the same thing...i could not bring myself to admitting anything about it. it is so frustrating that we have these fears, that has a simple answer of ..."just go becuase its normal, and dont care what anyone else thinks about it".....but actually thinking that is not so simple.

im thinking i should get the phrase....'everybody poops' tattooed someone where i can read it every day. maybe then i'll feel better about it.