Yes, yes and yes. Experience all of these thoughts/feelings. It is a nightmare! No suggestions I am afraid, just sympathy. The fear of it makes me feel physically sick anyway on most occasions eg. day's out, so I ending up eating very little anyway, but the urges to go still occur. I usually end up eating on the journey back home, as that's when I am most relaxed and know there are only 'x' number of hours to my home. What a pathetic existence...God, I hate the way this condition/fear rules my life!