I have the same problems as many of you. I cannot have BM's outside of my apartment or my parents house. I even have problems in my own home, if other people are here. I live in a 3 bedroom apartment with my own bathroom inside of my bedroom and if anyone other then my roommates are in the house, I cannot go, even though there are two doors between me and them. I hate it, it's frustrating, and I wish it would go away. I have short breaks between classes, and generally have to take the bus home and back just so I can go to the bathroom. I even have problems around my boyfriend of three years. He knows of this problem, we've talked about it on several occasions and he's very supportive of it, so I don't think it's embarrassment. The only time I can go when he's in my house is if he's asleep, and even then I have to run the vent fan and on occasion the water to be able to go. I hate going on trips where I'll be gone for more then a few hours. The other part of my problem is that when I am home, I usually go three times a day.. so being gone and not going for a couple days is aweful. I don't even physically feel like I need to go most of the time, I know it's mental, and that it's due to being tense, because the second I step in my house, I have to go, because the muscles are relaxed. I've considered tricking myself by using my ipod every time I go to the bathroom even at home, maybe playing the same song each time I poo, and then listening to that same song when I'm away to try and go.. Any thoughts? |
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