HIya Sue, Yep I know exactly how you feel. It's so wonderful knowing Im not alone. My ex's over the last ten years hve known about it and been supportive. But yep I'm the same. I would go as soon as everyone left the house. But i dont' get the house to myself much these days with us all working odd hours. Sometimes i go no probs whilst boys are here othertimes no..its very frustrating. As Isaid my boys are good if im having ar eally hard time, they will go out for half an hour to give me some privacy and i go no probs. I'ts horrible I sympathise