I currently suffer parcopresis in a way that I simply cannot feel like taking a crap when people are around even when my colon is impregnated with crap, but as soon as I am totally alone it literally feels like dropping out.
At home the situation is everyone has to either be asleep or not at home before the crap feels like dropping out, otherwise until then part of my colon holds it up and it stays up there.
Also I feel I have to do this silly ritual to get me totally in the mood to crap which is embarrassing to say but I need help so here it goes. I am basically a retro person and love early B&W/colour Aussie television from the 60s/70s and so I watch on my TV or computer screen clips from early programs or old testcards as it gets me in the mood plus back then Australia was less metropolized and more rural and more simpler which gives me that PEACEFUL feeling so watching that stuff gets me in the mood. I also imagine myself being in some rural town alone in an old shed full of vintage TV sets and valves and some of the old sets switched on in there displaying those old programs and I feel a sense of peace too as I also am a collector of vintage TVs and other old electronics. And then I feel it's easiest for me to crap totally stark naked 
as I feel this sense of freedom when doing so, so given those conditions there is no resistance for me to crap. So that's my weird ritual which further helps me to go on top of being alone.
I remember doing a similar process when I was about 6 when I had parcopresis on a different level I had an interest in windmills so looking at a book with pictures of windmills helped me to go, weird as it sounds it worked. So I guess emersing myself into doing something I totally enjoy gets me in the relaxed mood.
As mentioned my parcopresis has been in varying levels over the years, when I was a kid I use to for some reason purposely go once every 3 or 4 days in which it would come out no matter what after that period of time and I virtually never went when on 3-4 day school trips or scout camps or family holidays, for some reason I didn't want to go unless I was home. When I was 18 I got so badly constipated it scared me into forcing myself to go everyday without fail and during the early 2000s I literally could only go early hours of the morning when everyone was asleep and I of course did the above ritual.
Also around that time I couldn't even pee in a public toilet with people around not even in the stall, fortunately I'm over the worst of that which I can pee in the stall with people around but can't pee in the urinals with other blokes around.
Around mid to late 2000s when I had a job my parcopresis was at a much lesser level and I could crap in the workplace toilet when it felt like coming, and when I was getting drunk on weekends or on camps during mid mid/late 2000s I was less affected by parcopresis and could crap, of course the alcohol helped it to come through too. Also sometimes on bike rides I do get the urge to crap and could go to a petrol station toilet and go and even though there is some resistance it wasn't enough to stop me.
But in the last year my parcopresis has gotten bad again so I need to find a solution as it is depressing me like nothing else as I am afraid to go on holidays unless I know I'm going to be alone, I am afraid to stay at other people's places, I am afraid of if I miss a few days my colon is going to ache like nothing else and the crap will refuse to budge until I'm alone and I suffer pain pain pain!!!
I like all of you who have similar problems really want to be able to fully defecate and urinate anywhere in any environment with people around as well as without people around, all without any resistance so if any of you have any viable solutions for me I would immensely appreciate it as this problem has haunted me for most of my life!!!
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