I should try some of these rituals. For me it used to be smoking a cigarette. I never considered myself a smoker, but there was a period when I used to smoke one before taking a #2. I abandoned this habit then, because I don't want to smoke.

I'm just wondering whether this condition has anything to do with our general mental and psychological state. I have always wondered this. Would I be a more easygoing, brave or bold if I did not have this problem? Or do I have this problem, because I'm too tense and fragile.

I don't feel very fragile, but I admit that I do have some kind of social anxiety. I'm hiding it well, and probably it is not even noticeable by an outsider. I'm just wondering whether there is a common psychological trait among the people who have this problem. I'm thinking that for some reason we feel more vulnerable or anxious compared to others, and the feeling manifests itself this way.

During the time when you could crap in the workplace, was there anything different in your life? Was there a difference in the way you felt about yourself, or about the people around you during that time?