My boyfriend I know wouldn't care, but yet I cannot tell him. I go 2-4x a day, and we hardly ever go out anymore because we ride the bus currently and I have to always get off to go, and there's not always a bus stop until we get further into town.
One day...we ate breakfast before heading out on a date. Well, I got off because I HAD TO GO. Nobody had public bathrooms...I had to sit somewhere...and he ran to the nearest place (a jail lol) to see about public bathrooms...I had an accident right then and there...managed to change and everything while he was gone without noticing.
But it traumatized me. I move in with him tomorrow and I'm so scared. I even have to stay a couple days then come back home for a few so I can try and hold it in a little.
I can go at home, in public bathrooms if he's not outside waiting or if nobody but maybe one other person is in the bathroom with me.
I panic though when I have to go and I'm with it. I'm sometimes cry, shake, and just feel like I'm having some emotional breakdown.
I won't eat for days sometimes, but I go no. 2 anyway so that doesn't help, just makes me sick.
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