Max, just know that you are not alone and that you can come to us whenever you feel the urge of telling how you feel. It would be great if you could tell your therapist all of this, I have always thought illnesses come from within and maybe you need to feel safe and relaxed, love yourself, figure out what is missing. One thing that has worked for me is this video that shows a massage to make your intestine work, I really hope it also turns out good for you:



It’s in spanish, but you can see clearly what you have to do. I did it at night and helped me until next morning. Just try not to think about it, maybe your intestine is slow and you just have to respect that, not force it (I poop once a day and I’m already used to it)

Also, one thing that worked for me (with colitis, but it’s something) is something that I read in an article. I wish I could explain it well, but summarized, it said that the only thing we ever fear in life is the future. If we were really living the moment to its fullest, we would never fear anything. Fear makes life unbearable, I understand what you are going through. But if we really lived our present, if we just focused on eating, sleeping, doing whatever we have to at the moment without thinking about what will happen next, our suffering would reduce hugely. Quoting the magazine “At the highest intensity of the moment, there is nothing no fear, just something to deal with”.
I know this may sound like cheap philosophy but I feel like the worst thing about parcopresis is the constant worry of having the urge to go when people is around, instead of the moment when you are already there in the bathroom.
Skate, do what you love, live life to its fullest, do not quit. We are all with you and if you get out of this, it will be a victory for us that we’re dealing with it too.
Please, do not let this get you down, there is no thing that cant be solved