Dear Pam...I appreciate your support and I know that you only want to encourage people in my situation. The truth is nobody is going to help me unless I find a way to help myself and as you said make the right choices! Right now I feel like I am trying to pull myself out of quicksand.

I get lectures from people who think they know my situation and I get little nasty remarks from the individual that I live with. These people aren't on this board. They really bug the He## out of me especially since they have never had to struggle with a really big weight problem!!!!! I guess I am just a very angry fat woman! (Sounds like a great title for a book" I think I needed to vent and thanks for that. I need to develop a thicker skin and as Yvonne put it "self worth". With a boost in self esteem I would be better able to confront my demons.

If you want to remove my comment please feel free to do so.