can you live with your love
Posted by sad on 1/22/2006, 9:45 pm
i have a very sad story:...my boyriend and i were going out for 2 years. we lived in seperate appartments and got on great. then he bought a new appartment and asked me to move in.i was a bit nervous due to my parcopresis but said yes afraid not to dissapoint him. he was like a child jumping up and down hugging me with excitment! he was so looking forward to it he even decorated th plants with fairylights and bought lovely pink feathery pillows to make me feel at home! but then it came to a week before i was to move in and i just couldnt do it. the only loo he had was ensuite and it terrified me.i couldnt tell him the reason and said i just wasnt ready.he took this very badly, and saw it as a reflection on him. he said he obviously loved me more than i him. but i love him so much it hurts.we have broken up now and both of us are miserable. so i made my mind up that if i want to keep him im going to have to live on laxitives. i hate th tought as im aware that their not the best for natural bowel health. and if used all the time im sure would aid the development of bowel cancer or somthing. but im willing to take the risks other wise loose th love of my life and that would be torture. has anyone else been in a similar situation? if so id really like to hear about your experiences. or if there are people living with partners id sure like some tips or cures. pleeease give me some help as im at my wits end. thankyou soo much. very sad... ps this is a great site, glad i found it*
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