Over the last 4 years, my phobia has gone from simple, normal nervousness about it, to complete fear and panic. I have developed a panic disorder and claustrophobia from this illness. I have no problem going if i am on my own in a public place...but my problem is when i am out to dinner, or with friends, and especially with my boyfriend and his family. I went away to college, but had a complete mental breakdown and left after only 4 days. this really upset me because i looked forward to experiencing the college life. I go to a community college in my community, but can only attend for one more year before i have to attend a further university. I am seeing a psychiatrist about this, and was finally glad to talk to someone about my feelings. The huge problem now is with my boyfriend. He and I are in a very serious relationship of almost 4 years, too young to wed. I told him about this site and my problem recently when i discovered it had a name. He said that he would try to be understanding, although i know it bothers him talking about private matters such as this. He is the kind of man who believed for years that women didnt poop, burp, or fart. This is very different from the way i was raised, which my father said..the family that farts together stays together...but somehow his opinion of me means more than most. I have to go before i see him, or if im with him and i have to go #2, i panic and cry and want to go home for both physical and emotional relief. this has caused me to miss wonderful vacations and events. I keep telling myself..."this is silly, just go and dont care what anyone thinks. its human nature to have to defacate, so just go and laugh about it if anyone says anything"....but when it comes to it..i completely freak! anyone have any suggestions on what to do????????
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