The rest of my career I worked by weekly magazines, without writing about meetings. There were long times in which I could live very well with my toilet phobia. It still was existing, but I did not give it the possibility to let it spoil my whole live.
Three years ago there was a big reorganization in the company I worked for. That period was very exciting for me, there was a possibility that I should get my pension. Which I did not want at that time, because I worked with great pleasure.
My daily defecation changed in that period. The years before I always went to the toilet in the morning and mostly I could 'clean' my tubes very good in one turn. I was sitting a long time, because my faeces did come in several portions, but it worked.
Three years ago that did not work anymore. I could not get clean in one turn, I needed to go several times to the bathroom to get that 'clean feeling'. Because I want to have defecation before I go outside, that situation is very difficult for me. I'm a social type and I like to meet other people. Another problem is that it is very difficult to go on holiday. Last year my girlfriend (we have a LAT-relationship) and I went a small week to a lodge in the woods in the east of Holland. We had a good time en I went to the toilet every day in one turn. But after that there came a lot of farts out of my backside. My girlfriend does not have any problems with that. But we also went among other people, that was very difficult for me.
A few months ago I heard about the existing of this organization and this website. It was a relief for me to know that I'm not the only one in the whole world who suffers of parcopresis. They say there are in England about 4 million people with any kind of toilet phobia. That means that in Holland there must be 1.3 million of them. As far as I know there is in our country no organization like the British one. Or am I searching on the wrong spots? Who can give me an address of a Dutch parcopresis-foundation and/or addresses of people in Holland which are suffering from that phobia?
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